Struggeling

I'm struggeling with my dark side. Too much work, for too long, drives my demons to the surface whenever I'm out of office. Don't know why really, it's just a fact. I cannot hide.

Happy New Year 2009

My New Year's resolutions:

• be happy (it's a choice)
• express gratitude and love

People who are... people

"It's hard to see what people have become, you know.
It hurts...
Time has passed and we who left have changed in a different way than those who stayed. I don't want to go there anymore, at least not for a "vacation".
If I should go, I better go on my own. And only for a very short time, just to see madar joon."

Those are R's words...
oh, by the way, "people" is mainly referring to family. His family.

Am I ridiculous to feel hurt by this?

Vancouver

Last week I had the opportunity to go to Vancouver, Canada. It was the first time ever in Canada for me, and a really short, crazy, trip. Leaving Gothenburg on Sunday, having meetings in Vancouver Monday and Tuesday, and then flight back to Gothenburg on Tuesday night. Considering the flight is 13 hours, with a time difference of 9 hours.... well, you do the maths. (Hint; I was quite groggy the rest of the week.)

I didn't have much time to actually see the city, more than from the cab window, but I think I like downtown Vancouver. I stayed at the Westin Grand Hotel which was really nice. And I did walk down to Yaletown on Monday night to have dinner. Ended up at a place called something like ...cactus...? or something. Good food, nice staff, and not too crowded :-)

I learned that Vancouver has really good asian food, and people seem to be relaxed and very friendly. Oh, by the way, I bought the book "Life of Pi" (by Yann Martel) at the Book Warehouse (open till 22:00). I always try to buy "english books" when I'm abroad because they are darn expensive in Sweden. And this one I have ment to read for a long time now, but just haven't come around to it.

On the way back, I had an old greek man sitting beside me. He didn't speak that much english, but I figured out that he was from Athens and that he had a son in Vancouver. The flight was a bit bumby and everytime we entered bad weather the old man took out a prayer book. He asked me a thousand times if I was from Holland (we were changing flight in Amsterdam). And even though I said "no, I'm from Sweden", he popped the question once again a few minutes later.
One of my biggest fears is to loose my brains... this man was so sweet, and when we landed at Schiphol he gave me two big cheek-kisses, and one on my head.

I lost her, the world lost her.

My friend since 20 years passed on

two months ago.

I feel so lonely.

What's up?

What's up, you might wonder.

Well, I'm back in Sweden. Right now I just got back from the dentist (one cavaty which cost me 1500 SEK, approx 250 USD, and quite some pain, but I'm just happy it wasn't worse.) and a few days ago I got my tickets for this summer trip to Iran.

The European Championship in football is ongoing. Sweden lost to Spain 1-2 and will take on Russia on Wednesday. Equal score is enough to take Sweden to the quarter finals, so that's what I'm hoping for.

I'm reading "Mental Technology - Software For Your Hardware" by Barbara Berger. You can check her out here.

What else???
The sun is shining over Göteborg.
I'm alright.
Life is good.

/Take care, all you beautiful people.